Taking a short break from the story to share a really good coping skill for anxiety and worry.  How can you predict the future?  Guess what...YOU CAN'T.  You have to set it up in your mind that the past is the past....let it go...you can't change it so why are you still hanging on to it.  The future is an illusion and NO ONE can predict it no matter what some people can say.  Only the Holy Father in heaven has that capability.  Focus on the present (and for heaven's sake quit multitasking).  Remember this promise from God in Jeremiah 29:11:  For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.